Push me out from the darkness
To a sky thats colored blue
Somewhere someones finding happiness
While Im still here so hung up on you

Nothing is real
And I want you to know
That Im not alright
When you tear open my chest
Ill try not to flinch
Wont make promises
You taught me that Im still losing whats left out
My self esteem
And Im still watching the slow fading of all my daydreams

The hardest things to say are the words that mean the most
So Ill bite my tongue til it bleeds and I doubt youll even know
The easiest thing to fakes a feeling to fool someone else
And Ive been tricked for so long by you
that I spent these last few months in my own hell

A failed apology
A day too late but now I see
That all you really wants to see me dangle neck first from a tree
But what would you need me for
Youve got friends galore
And all youll ever be to mes a stupid lying excuse for a person

I could call
But I know that you wont be there to pick up the phone
You dont have time for me
I could call but I know you wont get the phone
Dont have time for me

I hate myself
For loving you like this
I hate myself for hating myself
Just enough to love you
Just enough to love you