surrender to the air && let the sky bare this soul free and bright like a lodestar && leading to the sun && warming from both sides && nothing like these killing arms that suffocate true desire .
i cant watch myself live to see the day where I break.
that day is flowing towards me.
like waves gaining pace
like tides that never change
more swiftly.
more evenly.
more quietly.
the endless cycle of give and take && the careful words we have the guts to say
the unfufillment that has numbed my insides and sealed my fate.
i have to give in to the ground below my feet
as we edge closer to those final steps I can hear the earth begging:
'the rats, they want you && the soil is calling”